Where is the real Me?

 Today, I want to start with a little secret. Come on, come closer to the screen. As soon as a secret is told, two people connect, Right? So here's a tiny one of mine. I used to believe that I could switch between "ME's". (Unbelievable, much?)

During the "GREAT MOVE", I was like a zombie.

(Read more about it in my previous posts- Post 1 ,Post 2 ).

Sometimes, I felt as if I am invisible, and honestly, no one really paid attention to me. For the class I was the "Shy New Kid who is totally Nerdy". Yeah, I know. Not a great reputation there.

Around Grade 5, I went to Zoey's birthday party. (Again, that isn't her real name). Unlike other parties, I actually enjoyed this one! 

Zoey dragged me out from my little corner. (I was furious at that time, but oh well, keep reading). It's impossible to NOT talk to Zoey! She's AWESOME!

My Shy days went away from there, it also helped that I had achieved the "proper accent". 

But something was wrong. I felt different. As soon as I would walk out the door, to go to school, to go to a shop, whatever. I would feel like a change, like you know. The way they do for reality shows, or teen movies. One minute you're all normal, and then POOF! You're all pretty and stuff.

It was like, like I'm a whole new me. Like I'm two different people. One reserved for my family and the other "Me" for the outer world.

And guess what? I was totally wrong. The accent wasn't what made me "a new me". It was all about the change in my attitude. Inside my house, I had nobody judging me, so I could roam around in PJ's with a book in one hand and with ridiculous specs. (I did do that ;) ) 

But outside, in the school, at the parking lot, in my homeroom, people judged me. On how I spoke, my confidence, my clothes, hair and more. I felt insecure, but I didn't have a name for it then. So, as soon as I left my house, I pretended.. To be a cool and popular person, who everyone likes. I would give up what I liked just for the sake of popularity. 

So yeah, I pretended to be someone I was not. Which is definitely NOT OKAY. A huge lesson which I realized later is the fact that you DON'T HAVE TO CHANGE to please people. The way you are is perfect!

One day, I was so under pressure by all the pretending that I broke down, in front of Chloe and Zoey. My amazing BFFs helped me see that I'm awesome just the way I am! Shoutout to you guys!!!!

So, if you ever, EVER feel like you're pretending for the sake of others, DON'T. 

Please! Don't put yourself in this situation. I've been through it and it is NOT nice at all!

For all those who are pretending.....DON'T! 

For all those who aren't pretending, but judge people....again...DON'T!

Just remember, the world is a beautiful place and you have to ADD to the beauty! Not diminish it!

PS- I did some research, and guess what? Real Me is the name of a cellphone company! (Ha!😆)

Well, that's all for now! Get back to me in the comments below!

Logging off,

The One Who Always Talks